You'll Find Me Near The Sun

I placed myself on the cold sand,the wind blowing through my hair,
I stared at the sun which smiled back at me.
The waves crashed,splashed water on my face,
But the sun gives the warmth i need.

I hear laughter,i turn back,
I see my li'l precious ones building a sandcastle.
My little Jonathan comes up to me and asks me to crack,
one of his funny made-up riddles.

Just to see the smile on his face,
I tell him i do not know.
And then he grins and his face glows,
And tells the answer.

I held the sand in my hand,
I knew my time was running out.
But i couldn't let myself cave in,
this was a war to be fought.

And i was going to lose anyway.

As i look at myself in the mirror,
A bald ugly woman stares back at me.
I was tired and exhausted,
but i had so much more to see.

I wanted to do everything i could,
before I end up on a hospital bed.
But that's exactly what happened,
I had to be dressed,washed and fed.

A few days later,I opened my eyes,
I was covered with weird tubes and wires.
I saw my husband holding my hand,
It made me feel good and it felt like fire.

The pain was excruciating,
And I could take no more.
I mouthed the words "i love you",
and let myself drown in the pool of pain.

Something told me to fight back,
I opened my eyes again.
I saw men in white masks,
And they were hurting me a lot.

I tried one last time,to see the world,
but failed miserably.
I heard a beep and the pain was gone,
And i felt free....and well-happy.

But then all I could see was darkness.